today sucks

so heartbreaks suck! first you have to just get over the fact that they dont want you anymore. and then you find out a year later that they just got married. and now it isnt that you want them back, its more about how they could get over you so fast. fast enough to love someone else and wanna spend the rest of their lives with them, not you. i hate today.

This story starts like many before with a simple girl. A seemingly ordinary girl. She has an ordinary family. Lives in an ordinary house. And does very ordinary things. To most who look at her she would appear as just that, ordinary. But to those of us who can see more than that. Those of us who have a sight that sees beyond the ordinary she would appear to be a bit more. Maybe even a bit magical. But there is plenty of time to get to that. For now we are going to start on a very ordinary day. A day that appears much like every other day, or is it?

pretty feathery flowers 

walking away

writing...

here is a lil excerpt from something im working on:

One thing I havent mentioned yet is how many times I've looked at my phone hoping he will call or text. I hate phones sometimes. What I wouldnt give though to have him say how wrong he was and that he can't live without me. He wouldn't have to say much, just those simple words and I would run back into his arms, no questions asked. I feel so weak. I have always felt like such a strong woman, able to tackle anything and succeed. Why is it love can make us feel so very weak? I am the stupid girl who would do anything right now to have her man back. I never wanted to be that girl. I am not that girl. I am a catch. So why did he throw me back? I want to cry again. I felt like I was getting through this one day at a time but its too much. Come back please. I cry again that night until I have cried myself to sleep yet again.

i call the first one "the chase".

it was beautiful out so we had a little photo shoot time with the dogs. 

pictures and such

So the point of this blog is because I am always talking about things that I want to do and be but rarely end up doing and I am now committing to doing some a lil each day. So I will be posting pictures that I have taken and maybe lil snippits of things I have written whether its song lyrics or just writing in general. And I dont mind feedback. Basically what it comes down to is that I want to stop saying and start doing. So here goes...